Equity, rightness, probity, executive; triumph of the observing side in law.
Justice is about cold, objective balance through reason or natural force. You can't keep smoking and drinking without consequences to your health. It is the card that advises cutting out waste and insists that you make adjustments, do whatever is necessary to bring things back into balance, physically, emotionally, socially, spiritually. It is a card of balance and harmony; if there is imbalance, the correction may require recourse to the law.
the lyrics f0r my friends 0ut there be4 i g0 0ut t0 w0rk. :)
10:00 AM
a new page, a new chapter
f0r many pe0ple; i guess its g0nna be an eventful h0liday.
f0r mine? dun need t0 ask.
its g0nna be the walking 0f the midnight tracks. the sandy path, the tw0 r0ads. the same 0ld buses. the same 0ld w0oden d0ors. the same 0ld pe0ple.
that all i can think f0r t0night.
*the w0rld is bec0ming like a dream* *my life is bec0ming 0f a timetable*
1:50 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
as the w0rld unf0lds itself, as the rain fall d0wn, as the time g0es by.
[Ima Made Nando Mo] *p0ofs*
11:13 AM
a new page, a new chapter
im g0nna bl0g be4 i g0 0ut 0n my j0urny 0f midnight tracks -.-
0k. all is d0ne. everything is finished. n0thing m0re t0 study f0r the time being.
im just g0nna wait f0r the next sem t0 c0me. and see f0r h0w l0ng the lies 0f everthing c0n't in this battlefield.
c0nculsi0ns f0r this sem. simply. war.
its interesting when i 0pened my eyes t0 the w0rld, things bec0mes s0 clear. very clear.
pe0ple's char are made kn0wn t0 me. pe0ple's plans are sh0wn t0 me.
i w0nder whats g0nna happen next sem when scho0l starts. fr0m the intial 0f 6 pe0ple.
this c0untry br0ke d0wn, bit by bit. 0ne by 0ne.
0nce the l0ng table can be fully 0ccupied. n0w? its n0t even half 0ccupied.
nah. l0oks like next sem is g0nna be a very interesting sem t0 l0ok f0rward t0. life with0ut sch0ol is indeed b0ring.
will next sem turn 0ut the way i think? 0r w0uld it be an0ther eye 0pener again?
wh0 kn0ws? i d0n't.
im g0nna disappear fr0m this face 0f the w0rld f0r n0w. yar. me and my bucks life.
*every beginning has an end* *but every end c0mes a new beginning*
cya guys s0on. p0ly life is indeed p0litical.
*POOFS*
12:58 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Monday, February 26, 2007
dedicated t0 s0me pe0ple.
pe0ple like raven and lishan.
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I can’t stand to fly I’m not that naive I’m just out to find The better part of me
I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane More than some pretty face beside a train It’s not easy to be me
I wish that I could cry Fall upon my knees Find a way to lie 'bout a home I’ll never see
It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive Even Heroes have the right to bleed I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede Even Heroes have the right to dream It’s not easy to be me
Up, up and away…away from me Well it’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight I’m not crazy…or anything…
I can’t stand to fly I’m not that naive Men weren’t meant to ride With clouds between their knees
I’m only a man in a silly red sheet Digging for kryptonite on this one way street Only a man in a funny red sheet Looking for special things inside of me inside of me ...... inside of me ...(x2)
I’m only a man in a funny red sheet I’m only a man looking for a dream
I’m only a man in a funny red sheet
It’s not easy ... wu.. hoo.. hoo.. It’s not easy to be me...
------------------------------------- understand IT. live IT. LEAVE it. =)
11:37 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Sunday, February 25, 2007
tml is the final paper. its cisc0. yar.
its n0t th0se g0od lo0king alarms that pr0tect y0ur h0me. theres m0re then meets the eye. ha-
i faced cisc0 fr0m ar0und n0on till 8. st0pped f0r dinner and c0n't until n0w.
dinner- i ate 2 dinner t0day. p0werful st0mach i have -.-
first its my dad's c0oking. imagine.
steam egg with minced meat. w/o salt.
b0iled chicken. w/o salt.
vegetable s0up. w/o salt.
... a balanced and healthy meal. s0 i ended up g0ing back t0 me r0om and. munched 0n these
.. then a buddy 0f mine called me t0 meet him f0r dinner. ha- i agreed. went f0r Burger king. and yesh. MR LYC. i paid f0r the f0od. y0u 0we me dunn0 h0w many bucks ria0s.
then he said he wanted t0 g0 get stuffs fr0m his GF. s0 i acc him t0 RP.
but he threw me there al0ne caused his GF wanted t0 have dinner.
.. my 8 years buddy -.-
s0 i t0ok a l0ng walk back caused i didn't want t0 face cisc0 s0 s0on. but in the end still t0ok the bus cause my legs ached after ar0und 4 st0ps.
s0 came h0me and faced cisc0 again. w0ots.
many pe0ple is still d0ing cisc0 n0w. maybe they will d0 it until 1am 0r 2?
tml the RHB gang w0uld be in sch0ol at 3. th0se wh0 want t0 have the last lunch with RHB. ha - can c0me d0wn and find us. l0l- said until we are like superstars -.-
yesh. i planned everything 0ut. im n0t returning h0me until 11 i guess. i wan t0 g0 catch a m0vie 0r smth.
0k im d0ne here. g0od luck t0 y0u all tml. pls have a nice rest and early sleep. cya guys tml XD.
11:32 PM
a new page, a new chapter
In life. theres 0nly 2 ch0ice.
live it.
0r,
leave it.
------------------------- bel0w is a vide0 0f s0me0ne jumping at the mrt stati0n. its real.
WARNING> if y0u cann0t take it. d0n't click the link. it might just make y0u g0 numb and cann0t study cisc0. UPDATE> Its Fake. haha- just saw the f0rums. and its fake.
whats left i guess is ethernet and the calculati0ns.
ha-
a day 0f silence and surprises.
in the m0rning. i f0und a friend which i haven seen f0r a very very l0ng time. he s0rt 0f acc0mpanied me thru my childh0od days. he saved me fr0m life and death. he came t0 my help when i need him. hes...
the d0u hua.
...
0k lah. -.-.... i didn't eat it f0r a freaking l0ng time. and suddenly f0und 0ut my h0use d0wnstairs s0ld it.
an0ther incident. after cisc0, which is 7 plus. my dad called me. telling me t0 meet him bel0w and t0 g0 s0mewher. i ask why. but he say lata he wil tell me.
s0 when i was 0n his car. he said. Dad:"y0u still remember the uncle wh0 we meet every m0rning t0 have breakfast with?" Me: "yar. why leh?" Dad:"he died." Me:"!!!???" Dad:"High bl0od pressure and bl0od vessesl bl0cked" Me:"HUH? he dun sm0ke 0r anything leh." Dad:"s0?" Me:"s0 we're g0ing n0w t0 his funeral?" Dad:"yar, but f0r a while 0nli" ....
Dear uncle. thanks f0r taking care 0f my dad and me f0r dunn0 h0w many years. the bread y0u t0ast is that superb. the tea y0u make it that nice. g0od bye and see ya next time.
in l0ving mem0ries. bing. ....
thats all f0r t0day. tml is an0ther cisc0 adventure. i wan t0 g0 0ut and have fun. anywhere. anything.
g0od luck t0 th0se studying n0w. =)
10:23 PM
a new page, a new chapter
its s0 quiet.
t0o quiet.
2 m0re days left t0 cisc0.
my timetable f0r next week is 0ut. l0oks like im disappearing so0n.
$$$ is hard t0 earn =/
next wednesday. A BIG DAY. yea.
will tell m0re 0n that day. g0od night and study hard pe0ple =)
1:41 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Friday, February 23, 2007
its an0ther start.
its an0ther day.
l0ok up t0 the sky and say.
i'll make it a w0nderful day.
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i wan t0 g0 back t0 year 2000.
wher every m0rning im awaken by my mum. washing the cups. wher there is always a cup 0f warm water 0n my table. wher i will say g0od m0rning t0 her.
wher i wait f0r her and g0 t0 the market. wher i will eat breakfast with her. wher i carry f0r her the g0cerys. wher i will always ask her t0 buy me choc0 biscuits.
wher i will hear her telling me t0 d0 my h0mew0rk. wher she will ask me what i wan f0r dinner. wher she will nag at me t0 bath. wher she will l0ok at the time and rush 0ut f0r the tv.
wher i sit with her 0n the s0fa and watch the tv. wher she chases me 0ff t0 sleep at 11. wher she wakes up early in the m0rning and c0ver me with my blanket. wher she r0lls d0wn the curtains.
wher she will d0 eveything a mum will d0.
wher 4 0f us will sit 0n that small dinning table. wher she and my dad will talk and laugh. wher she always picks 0ut the b0nes fr0m the fishes. wher she wil clean all 0f the dishes. wher she will sc0ld me when i d0 things wr0ng. wher i will talk t0 her ab0ut scho0l life. wher she wil sc0ld me f0r falling sick; but yet bring me t0 the d0ct0r.
wher she will ir0n the cl0thes f0r me. wher she will acc0mpany me t0 buy cl0thes. wher she will smile when i d0 things silly. wher i said dumb things and she will laugh.
i hate my life n0w. i wake up, and hear the c0nstructi0n w0rks. and the table is empty. the fl0or is dusty. and the h0use is empty.
the fridge is empty. my breakfast is n0thing. that big s0fa wher we sat. n0w, its 0nly filled up with cl0thes.
i shudn't be h0me n0w. i shud be 0utside with my mum at plaza having breakfast and buying dinner.
i hate n0w. i hate c0ming h0me. i hate g0ing back and seeing n0 0ne else. i hate sitting in fr0nt 0f the c0mputer. i hate c0ming back and have n0 0ne t0 ask me h0w am i.
i want t0 call "m0ther" everyday. i wan t0 see her everyday. thats what a m0ther is f0r.
i miss my mum. i miss th0se times. i miss my life.
in l0ving mem0ries --------------------------------- what my life n0w is a timetable. planned and ready. wher n0 changes are. and n0 changes will be. ---------------------------------
9:08 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Thursday, February 22, 2007
While waiting f0r the rice t0 be c0oked.
lets p0st a pathetic bl0g p0st.
h0w many pe0ple said "hi" t0 y0u t0day?
0r in a sense.
h0w many pe0ple asked h0w y0u are d0ing?
...
pathetic.
realli pathetic.
i cann0t see h0w different is this t0 0thers.
it was just a t0uch and g0. hadi's right f0r this 0nce.
the w0rkplace IS indeed m0re friendly then in sch0ol.
3 0f us. raven,hadi,me.
we left w/0 a trace i guess. 0nly thing was my sis saw us. haha-
an0ther day ended. an0ther pathetic day.
...
simply. pathetic.
8:30 PM
a new page, a new chapter
expect the unexpected.
define the undefined.
realise the unrealised.
smile f0r the unhappy
=)
9:36 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
0k. d0 a fast p0st.
hyp0thesis.
1 tailed. 2 tailed.
...
maybe i can try t0 f0rsake this 10 marks. ha-
tml everyb0dy is g0nna have C maths exam.
g0od luck, th0se reading this n0w. pls g0 and check ur seating number.
ha-
see y0u guys tml ! happy studying !~
=)
9:32 PM
a new page, a new chapter
if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
wh0 will lay with me,
and watch the w0rld g0 by.
10:11 AM
a new page, a new chapter
i was b0oming my l0udspeaker as usual this m0rning. and i f0und a friend inside.
a lizard -.-
i guess i w0ke it up. ha-
FEB 21.
i dunn0 h0w l0ng has it been since i saw s0me0ne i knew. dun menti0n hadi, i see him everyday.
ever since sem2 started, i lead a different life.
i started t0 m0nkey ar0und with all kinds 0f pe0ple. and i als0 realised s0me undergr0unds.
this sem w0uld had been fun.
1 igniti0n is all that pe0ple need t0 get the b0mbs started. mines started t0 appear. and airplanes were flying ar0und.
*pulls bricks 0ut*
nah. its g0ne.
2 m0re days t0 exam. c maths. and tml i think raven, hadi and me w0uld be in sch0ol t0 clarify s0me d0ubts. im asking pe0ple wh0 have d0ubts t0 c0me. dr0p me a call 0r a msg.
many pe0ple have been staying up late i guess. n0 m0re 0f th0se time where we sleep at 11, and wake at 6.
n0w. sleep at 1 0r 2. wake at 11 0r 12.
i want t0 g0 back t0 sec sch0ol -.-. where everyb0dy wears the same unif0rm. where n0 c0mpetiti0n 0f wealth is.
all is equal in a sense. thr0wing 0ur bags and rushing t0 the canteen. cutting queues like n0thing is wr0ng. sleep at classr0oms and teachers starts thr0wing the markers at y0u.
n0 fights. n0 c0mpetiti0ns.
just plain, fun.
i guess life as a 16 is different fr0m a 18. many things starts t0 bec0me clear.
haha-
im 0ld ria0s. my thinking's 0ld.
but yet i behave like a m0nkey.
2 m0re days;
and i w0uld see my buddies and classmates and *ahem*. but i guess its just g0nna be a plain "g0 and have exam den g0 h0me ba" day.
g0od night pe0ple. rest well =)
*misses*
12:13 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
in this w0rld.
there are 0nli pe0ple used.
and pe0ple being used.
simple.
1:18 PM
a new page, a new chapter
Monday, February 19, 2007
if i g0 army tml. i might die fr0m the 10kg pack 0f BMT EQs.
i weighted my mums stuff in that big black bag. 15kg.
and i s0rt 0f carried it all the way t0 her h0use! ...
my arms are aching and my hands have lines 0n them. i didn't kn0w my mum had 15kg 0f stuffs left in this h0use. which included that BIG AMC w0k my mum br0ught last time. and she said its t0o heavy. but nvm lah. she needs it s0 i carry. ...
but is damn heavy -.-
heard the news fr0m my mum thn my br0ther has been cursing me. yea. all the sh0rt f0rms that y0u can think 0f.
hit the wall br0. the w0rld is t0o big f0r y0u. g0 stare and the glass and lo0k at y0ur 0wn w0rld. n0 0ne else can pull y0u 0ut 0f that digital w0rld.
the wall 0f thinking. 0nce y0u think. y0ur pulling a brick 0ut fr0m y0ur wall, 0pening y0urselves t0 m0re and m0re thinking.
0nce that wall breaks d0wn. y0u see the wall 0f feelings. then y0u start t0 cry, and the wall c0mes crumbling d0wn.
then y0u l0ok up and see all the bricks lying ar0und y0u. and y0u piece them up again. al0ne 0r n0t al0ne. this wall. the wall 0f res0lve needs t0 be build up.
ask urself. whats y0ur res0lve in y0ur life. study? the 5cs? 0r just s0me plain stupid dreams 0f bec0ming a super her0. i kn0w many pe0ple wh0 think 0f themselves as anime her0s. like they are ichig0. wh0 can just put 0ut a sw0rd and g0 cut h0llows. like they are narut0. wh0 can bunshin and make ransengan. ... l0ok at y0urselves. y0u just a plain human with just 5 senses. and no. blinding y0urselves will n0t make y0ua daredevil. getting bit by a spider d0n't make y0u a spiderman. tearing y0ur cl0thes in a teleph0ne b0oth d0n't make y0u superman. adding chemicals int0 y0ur drinks dun make y0u, p0werpuff.
its n0t the time y0ur fighting at, its y0ur brain.
c0ntr0l y0ur brain. like i say. mem0ries remain mem0ries. thinking 0f it d0esn't bring it back. thinking 0f it 0nly makes y0u reflect.
c0mpare and c0ntrast. s0luti0ns and answers. c0nclude and c0nculsi0ns.
all 0f these are th0ught by 0urselves.
en0ugh 0f less0ns.
byE.
8:18 PM
a new page, a new chapter
like what happened in the m0vie " independence Day"
i declare Feb 18 . C math day!
....
imagine. 1 ch0co f0r 1 maths questi0ns. guess h0w many i ate t0day? ha-
an unexpected visit0r p0pped up t0day. my MUM =)
didn't kn0w she will be c0ming. was planning t0 visit her 0n the sec0nd day 0f CNY.
she appeared at the d0ordstep. with 2 big breakfast 0n her hands!
w0oho0.
i was supp0se t0 d0 all the ch0res t0day. but. she did it all.
THATS h0w great t0 have a mum at h0me. she i'll be leaving tml i guess =/
zzzzzz
and its all back t0 square 1.
3 days left t0 the first c maths paper. and i dunn0 the h0 and h1. the dunn0 what hyp0sti ? ? ? ?
lazy t0 checkt the txtb0ok =/
tml is an0ther h0me al0ne day. g0od night pe0ple!
this year CNY feels different. i w0nder why?
smile rahs . tag a smile 0n the b0ard. and stick a smile 0nto the face =)
everyb0dy g0ts a darkside. everyb0dy g0t smth dif inside. everyb0dy has that darkside inside.
im l0sing t0 the darkside. im stepping 0ver t0 the darkside. im pushed t0 the limit 0f cr0ssing the line. im 0ver the this thing called a limit. im breaking int0 the red z0ne. im l0sing. myself.
im breaking d0wn 0n my res0lve. im just an0ther pathetic human being living in the w0rld. my res0lve which i f0rmed myself. im tearing it d0wn so0n.
im l0sing it. this res0lve is nth much i c0uld h0ld 0n anym0re. im g0ing d0wn int0 the stairs 0f eternal darkside.
i t0ok 0ne step at a time. and n0w i slipped and fall. im r0lling d0wn this stairs. h0lding 0n t0 the metal sideway.
what am i afraid 0f? s0 what if all this happened t0 me. s0 what if i l0st my family 3 years ag0. s0 what?
am i the man wh0s res0lve is s0 easily br0ken? i remember 0nce s0me0ne t0ld me this.
if im afraid, just get str0nger. if im afraid, just get str0nger s0 that i can h0ld t0 my stand. s0 that i can get back up again. s0 that i can climb up that stairs again.
Even if n0 0ne else is g0nna help me, stand tall and say. thats the kind 0f man i 0nce knew myself t0 be.
--------------------------------------------------- im building that res0lve back 0ne by 0ne. piecing that wall back t0gether.
im drawing a0ther line. im extending my yell0w z0ne.
im g0nna turn back. back t0 wh0 i am.
im reaching 0ut. f0r the light i 0nce saw in my path.
happy chinese new year t0 everyb0dy, have a great time with y0ur family. have a great time visiting y0ur relatives. have a great time c0llecting the red packets.
just. have a great CNY. im 0nto the slient m0de. i kn0w my ph0ne will n0t ring. but if smth just cr0ps up and anyb0dy wh0 needs my help. just call.
im there. f0r anyb0dy. f0r s0meb0dy. f0r n0b0dy.
1:35 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Friday, February 16, 2007
if shinigami's can trade eyes f0r 1/2 f0r my lifespan.
im willing t0 live f0r just 0ne m0re day. just f0r a 2 way trip time machine.
11:23 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Thursday, February 15, 2007
an0ther h0me al0ne day.
asked ar0und f0r pe0ple t0 g0 0ut with me. and n0ne replied =/
s0 nvm. i g0 myself. Since im 0nli free t0day. went t0 the viv0 first. my sis 0wns this place i heard -.- headed f0r t0psh0p. l0oked ar0und f0r jeans and p0los ~ den br0ught a jeans and a p0lo. $89 -.- . g0t this dumb lucky prize card. 0f c0urse i scratch it. den ... $18 0f next purchase .. -.-
which made me g0 l0ok ar0und again. zzz. then i saw a jacket. lol. t0t 0f buying it just t0 fight with mr b. but n0 m0re size ria0s! AH - went t0 miss lishan territory. but still... n0 size! den head 0ver t0 cheryl's territory. als0.. n0 size -.-
s0 i gif up rah. fated t0 l0se t0 him. n0 ch0ice.
had been g0ing ar0und t0 many places al0ne f0r s0metime ria0s. which my ears are always bl0cked by ear pieces.
finished studying s0me maths. i guess i'll just leave cisc0 t0 next week. my brain is small s0 it cann0t c0ntain. ha-
anyway. g0od night pe0ple. im g0nna just r0ll ar0und my h0use until i can sleep.
waiting is my f0rte. changing is n0t my speciality. until that day y0u say. ----------------------------------------------------------------
10:02 PM
a new page, a new chapter
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
the s0ng its meaningful. VERY. enj0y =) St0ne S0ur. thr0ugh glass. -------------- I'm looking at you through the glass... Don't know how much time has passed Oh god it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head
How do you feel? That is the question But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer When something like a soul becomes Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes You cant expect a bit of hope And while your outside looking in Describing what you see Remember what your staring at is me
Cause I'm looking at you through the glass... Don't know how much time has passed All I know is that it feels like forever When no one ever tells you that forever Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
How much is real? So much to question An epidemic of the mannequins Contaminating everything When thought came from the heart It never did right from the start Just listen to the noises (No more sad voices) Before you tell yourself Its just a different scene Remember its just different from what you've seen
I'm looking at you through the glass... Don't know how much time has passed And all I know is that it feels like forever When no one ever tells you that forever Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
And it's the starrrssss The sttarrrsss That shine for you And it's the starrrssss The sttarrrsss That lie to you.. yeah-ah
I'm looking at you through the glass... Don't know how much time has passed Oh god it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
Cause I'm looking at you through the glass... Don't know how much time has passed All I know is that it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your heaaaaddd
And it's the starrrssss The sttarrrsss That shine for you.. yeah-ah And it's the starrrssss The sttarrrsss That lie to you.. yeah-ah
And it's the starrrssss The sttarrrsss That shine for you.. yeah-ah And it's the starrrssss The sttarrrsss That lie to you.. yeah-ah yeah
Ohhhoh when the starrs Ohhh oh when the starrrrs that liieee
------------ credits. hadi - s0ng pr0vider.
2:15 PM
a new page, a new chapter
0kie.
first 0f all. happy valentines day everyb0dy.
i h0pe that t0day y0u all will be 0ut and having fun. i wish black 0ps 2 g0odluck. i wish AMK arcade will return raven's wife tml.
tml g0nna be a busy day f0r me. im g0ing dating with sugarcanes and watermel0ns. ha-
w0uld y0u pay $200 ++ f0r a meal? f0r a valentine's meal? at a stupid resturant? ha-
anyway ~ im be h0me al0ne until 4 pm plus. and i might try t0 get s0me cisc0 d0ne. which is "MIGHT". its relaxing and calm during midnights.
i came h0me and f0und my dad sn0ring away. my br0ther is n0t at h0me. and s0me t0fu my dad fried 0n the table.
ha-
im d0ne with YTD life. im g0nna pr0ceed 0n with TODAY. XD
- life is wasted when y0u are thinking 0f trash. life is n0t wasted when y0u reflect 0n ur life.
hence dun let life waste away, cause 0nce the mem0ries are g0ne. its g0ne f0rever.
( >" )> - =)
1:58 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
s0meb0dy might kill me just f0r this. ha-
n0w i kn0w. milk really gets y0u t0 sleep. =D
an0ther part 0f y0ur life has past. what have y0u learnt t0day?
i f0und 0ut s0me truth behind the sences. and 0nce i f0und 0ut. pieces began t0 fit t0gether. ha-
s0 there was nth in the first place.
slack at h0me while d0ing maths. and yesh! i finished until tut0rial 4. ha! i didn't kn0w i can d0 th0se maths when im n0t listening t0 class.
Hadi called me at 2-3 plus. asking me t0 g0 t0 have dinner at the w0rkplace. s0 i t0t might as well g0 den slack at h0me. met up with him and had dinner. but he MIA a few times thru 0ut. ha-
after that went int0 the Night Safari. STAFF. FREE. even the trams were FREE. wo0ts.
its the 1st time i went there. and f0unt 0ut it wasn't really THAT interesting. dunn0 what were th0se t0urist "wah - ing" ab0ut. ha-
$28 f0r a 45 mins ride and see less then 20 animals? n0 way f0r me.
slacked ar0und and talk with hadi. men's talk. ha-
35% 0f ben and jerrys! [if y0u all want buy, just gif me 0r hadi a call XD]
its an0ther n0rmal day afterall. ha-
0kie. my hair dried up. s0 i can sleep n0w. g0od night peeps. =)
tml is a fun day f0r s0meb0dy. have fun XD ~
byE!~ =)
2:04 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Monday, February 12, 2007
Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.
My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.
Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.
(Repeats)
You say, "Dreams are dreams.
"I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."
Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.
You still are blind, if you see a winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.
Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.
5:57 PM
a new page, a new chapter
Sunday, February 11, 2007
i think im just g0nna bl0g n0w since n0thing interesting will happen t0 me when im at h0me. ha-
its just an0ther day. ain't w0rking t0day c0s 0f the blister i had 0n my feet. all thanks t0 dying ankle s0cks.
w0ke up early t0day. why? my mum called. ha- s0 i planned it all 0ut f0r tml. an0ther pr0b p0pped up. mis calculati0n + my fault.
then. i g0t that damn b0red. i decided t0 dump the cisc0 0n the table. get changed. and head f0r PS. Even if its just me al0ne and my ear piece. went 0ver and spend 1/2 h0ur 0n my 0ld flame. meet a bunch 0f mates. chatted f0r awhile and left.
walked ar0und like a wandering sheep. l0ok ar0und f0r new cl0thes. and i passed by flesh imp. ha - saw this cl0thes that s0rt 0f reminded me 0f vday. l0oks like it has a r0se in the centre. ha-
s0 i br0ught it h0me. n0w im missing a pair 0f jeans. and im utterly br0ke. =/ ha - at least i g0t stuff in my cupb0ard and frige.
thats all f0r t0day. n0thing much t0 be said anyway. i c0n't t0 rack my brains f0r the s0luti0n. byE - and have a g0od night everyb0dy.
8:39 PM
a new page, a new chapter
0k. its an0ther after 2am p0st =/
ha- im g0nna learn fr0m m0ses lim
------------------------------- lets me tell y0u a st0ry. l0ng l0ng time ag0 in the deepest part 0f the singap0re.
lies a place called . "ulu.ulu" after a functi0n. the pe0ple were g0ing h0me. and s0me 0f them were drunk.
s0 there was this india man. he was utterly drunk t0 the MAX. s0 i shud call him : "A" and there was this chinese man. hes AWAKE. i call him : "B"
A in a drunken state : dun play play with me. i kn0w tai Ji ! (begins t0 d0 s0me acting 0f tai ji) Suddenly, "BISH". A hitted B on his face. B was pissed 0ff : Eh . WTH y0u d0ing? (pushes A and A falls) then, B begins whacking A on the fl0or and s0me staff dragged him away. BUT. B was s0 pissed 0ff. after the staff let g0. B grabbed a chair. and ALM0ST whacked A .
after s0me pushing and sh0uting. the security came.
THE END. whats the m0ral 0f the st0ry ? 1) dun anyh0w play play with tai ji. it can hurt. 2) dun drink t0o much. 3) please, grab and hit the man. NOT THE GLASSES. we have t0 clear it up=/ 4) BEER gif y0u WINGS. LOL.
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i w0rked my life 0ut t0day. bl0od kept 0n fl0wing 0ur fr0m my feet. all thanks t0 the newc0mer wh0 st0od there like a gud0o.
its g0nna be a b0ring sunday. n0 fun. n0 g0ing 0ut. n0 gatherin with friends.
its g0nna be :n0b0dy: at h0me. =/
0kie lah . i nagged en0ugh. ha- g0od night pe0ple. sweet dreamies. and im missing s0me pe0ple. Mr raven aka my buddy. Miss s0meb0dy. MR dumb JC.
. im missing the lectures. the lunches. and the arcade times. =/
2:08 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Saturday, February 10, 2007
w0odho0 -
an0ther day bl0gging at past midnight. everyb0dy is asleep. ha-
exams are r0und the c0rner. and im n0t checking my blind sp0t. simply im just lazy t0 d0 s0. ha-
im n0t sure why th0u. ha- lets just say thats me. =)
0kie. i dun wan t0 fail a m0dule and see that dicks0n's face again. s0 im g0nna study. sunday - cisc0 burying time. m0nday - raven tuiti0n class.
after the exams. i wanna d0 0ne thing. i just wanna BURN the maths b0ok. ha-
anyway ~ V day i c0ming s0on. but ha- im g0nna buy things. 0n that day then let them kn0w what it is ~
its getting late. the water heater is dripping. ha- time t0 g0 refresh and sleep. g0od night f0lks. and sweet dreams !~ =)
1:39 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Thursday, February 8, 2007
w0ots. im supp0se t0 study. but l0ok. ha - theres 0nli abit 0f writing 0n that stupid b0ok.
ah. f0rget it. i think i will just g0 f0r my buddy's tuiti0n class. studying in sch0ol IS better. ha -
n0thing much f0r t0day t0o. guys vs girls life ? girls win.
why?
guys thats a go0d questi0n t0 ask. its like. y0u ask y0ur buddies t0 g0 and walk. they tell y0u they want t0 play game. ha- then. we dun have that much spare $ i guess. and we dun like wind0w sh0pping i think. s0 i guess n0thing beats then playing game 0nline. hammering s0me stupid p0ring walking 0ver. 0r simply slashing s0me xia0 qiangs. and burning s0me s0hee -.- I WANNA RO. ha-
mari0 kart. [ wo0h0o. 0il spills ] time crisis. basketball [ JC dun be sad that a pers0n trashed y0u -.- ] puzzle bubble. [ lines VS w/o lines ] dyatona. i think i spelled wr0ngly. =/ Drum Mania. [ p0or raven -.- n0 game play ] Initial D [ an0ther dumb game ]
s0. this ends the last less0n. last f0r year 1, last f0r this sem. s0. finally. n0 m0re 0f l0oking at pe0ple's face and evil pl0ts against each 0ther. weEe. and n0t weEe. ha - [ there i g0 again =/ ]
panad0l extras ! wo0. i take them like sweets. eat want0n mee and taste like ... =/ lucky that sugarcane still can taste. i guess im back t0 w0rking life tml again. ha - see y0u all pe0ple again 0n m0nday[ if raven g0t class ] 0r 0n 22 feb. thats when i see everyb0dy burying themselves in b0oks. ha-
bye byE and what a interesting Sem i had this time r0und ~
9:12 PM
a new page, a new chapter
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
ha- ha- ha-
why hahaha? miss s0meb0dy gave me a quiz. and interesting and hard t0 undertstand english quiz but the results. are simply interesting.
....
se it f0r urselves. ha
10:10 PM
a new page, a new chapter
thank y0u t0 these things wh0 w0rked the wh0le day . ha -
if i were t0 slack f0r the wh0le day like this f0r the wh0le h0lis. i will ROT and DIE. didn't even kn0w why i g0t headache t0day. 0h ya . thx panad0ls. must be th0se trash i have been eating at the w0rkplace. ha -
fr0m 11am i w0ke up . t0 current 909pm .
theres practically n0 living s0uls in my h0use except f0r me. wo0ho0 eh? i haven been seeing p0cket $$$ 0n my table f0r. 5 days? i l0st c0unt. ha -
i spent the wh0le day sleeping i guess. didn't t0uch 0n a abit 0f studying. maybe i will repeat my m0dule this sem. ha ! *t0uch w0ods*
that t0p 10%. nah . i dun wan t0 g0 up there and kill myself. i just want t0 d0 my best and thats all. n0thing much m0re 0r less.
laymen terms. i dun wan t0 w0rk hard. ha -
CNY is c0ming. Yay? pe0ple started t0 clear their ro0ms and h0use. but n0pe. im n0t g0nna d0 th0se stuff. ha -
CNY is nth t0 me. i didn't eat that dumb dinner f0r 3 years. and my dad is making a fuss 0ut 0f it. which i dun care. ha -
yay . and n0t yay. tml is thursday. last less0n f0r this sem. and the next time will be 0n 22 feb i guess. =/ s0. s0me might get what im thinking. s0me will just g0 and guess. ha -
im d0ne here. see y0u guys tml. 9am. ha- i dun think i will be a g0od b0y and stay in class th0u. m0st likey y0u will see me running ard h0lding pepsi, with my ears stuff with ear piece, sitting and daydreaming. ha- bye byE ~
9:00 PM
a new page, a new chapter
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
0ne w0rd "s0rry"
im truly s0rry t0 miss s0meb0dy. yea i am.
but everything turned 0ut fine again. s0 lets n0t think t0o much shall we? ha i shud just g0 and f0llow the arr0w. and hit my head real hard. ha- i need tat hard kn0ck t0 get myself up again.
why? i get shaken up easily by things tat aren't supp0se t0 happen. but n0w. wh0 cares =/ ha
ita an0ther day at w0rk. slack day. t0tal 4 h0urs i slacked. ha n0thing much t0 d0 t0day.
t0 th0se pe0ple wh0 are taking their family f0r granted. l0ok at me and y0u will treasure them. ha- why do i say until myself s0 pathetic.
g0od night human beings ~ im g0nna g0 hide in the shad0ws with my strips. ha-
11:42 PM
a new page, a new chapter
No sleep No sleep until I am done with finding the answer Won't stop Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer
Sometimes I feel I going down and so disconnected Somehow I know that I am haunted to be wanted
I've been watching I've been waiting In the shadows all my time I've been searching I've been living For tomorrows all my life
In the shadows In the shadows
They say That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe But I I rather kill myself then turn into their slave Sometimes I feel that I should go and play with the thunder Somehow I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder
I've been watching I've been waiting In the shadows all my time I've been searching I've been living For tomorrows all my life
Lately I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher
I've been watching I've been waiting In the shadows all my time I've been searching I've been living For tomorrows all my life I've been watching I've been waiting I've been searching I've been living for tomorrows
In the shadows In the shadows
I've been waiting
9:54 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Monday, February 5, 2007
a place wher i pass by alm0st everyday.
theres n0thing much t0 be picture actually. ha - just t0ok it while walking pass. -.-
0kie . i dr0pped by t0a pay0h as pr0mised t0 myself. but. i just walked ar0und. s0meb0dy is right. recall and dump.
s0metimes i dun understand why. pe0ple have a darkside. but i dun. i dun have the THAT super evil side 0f me. i dun have a sad side 0f me. i dun keep quiet that much and act c0ol.
Funny eh? pe0ple have bad m0ods. i dun. why? i dunn0. maybe. im still baking in the 0ven.
Why is it that pe0ple are able t0 express themselves? They can sh0w that they are in a bad m0od.
Why is it that i am able t0 be a happy-g0-lucky pers0n? 0r maybe just an0ther guy wh0 just think hack care.
ha - i dunn0 why myself. but i will find 0ut why.
(?-?)
yeah . its sch0ol t0day. enj0yed it with the bunch 0f friends wh0 didn't change. in the end. theres 0nli 7 pe0ple left in the surviving parts. 23 -7 = 16 16 pe0ple. 0ut 0f which s0me i d0 n0t kn0w well. 0ut 0f which i banished them t0 the part 0f classmates. i l0ok f0rward t0 thursday. n0t t0 see dicks0n. but t0 see s0meb0dy else. and t0 have my happy h0ur again.
2 m0re days. w0rk.
t0 that s0meb0dy: things t0 me dun change easily. maybe y0u feel s0rry. but i dun mind. d0 what y0u think is c0rrect. im there. waiting. =)
9:49 PM
a new page, a new chapter
w0ots. an0ther day at 0133 h0urs. the ending 0f an0ther day. and the beginning 0f the new 0ne.
n0thing much t0day. ha - except f0r my black 0ps buddy wh0 made a super sweet teh f0r me. w0rkplace is fun actually. just that these pair 0f hands are d0ing th0se dirty j0bs. thanks f0r hadi in guiding me f0r my w0rk. haha - slacker !
newc0mers always gets bullied. like h0w? i was managing the wh0le place 0utside while they had dinner. ha - n0 ch0ice. and i have t0 be last 0ne t0 get 0ff the bus. Aw. nvm these. at least i g0t s0mthing back h0me t0 enj0y. Ben & Jia Cai. NAH. Its Ben & Jerry's
i kinda 0f like w0rking t0 midnight. everyday i c0me h0me. everyb0dy is sleeping and i d0 n0t need t0 see anyb0dy's temper. i dun need t0 face my br0. i dun n0t nd t0 l0ck myself in the r0om. BEST OF ALL. i d0 n0t need t0 hide al0ne at the v0id decks anym0re.
Everytime the bus travel al0ng my 0ld h0use in t0a pay0h. i kept feeling a bit 0f sadness in me. i kn0w whats wr0ng. but i d0 n0t want t0 feel. everything changed fr0m t0a pay0h t0 seng kang. everything is different. everyb0dy in my family has changed. i dun see anym0re warmth in this family anym0re.
Still. im g0nna dr0p by t0day [ after 12 am =P ] t0 have a l0ok at my 0ld h0use. i g0nna see if i still remember th0se happy times when i was a kid.
0kie. time t0 bath and Zzz. g0od night everyb0dy =) Im a Safari Zebra. I walk back in the shad0ws. I miss the times where i slacked and enj0yed the c0nversti0ns. sch0ols ending so0n. 2 m0re sch0ol days. ENJOY it while it last =)
----------------------------------- there was a time where i enj0yed. there was a place i 0nce yearn f0r. there was a family i 0nce knew.
there was. these was n0 m0re. -----------------------------------
1:32 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Sunday, February 4, 2007
its 0152 h0urs i ended my first day 0f w0rk .
its been a w0nder-ful day . why w0nder-ful eh? w0rkplace was damn fun and busy. the pe0ple there are s0 interesting ha - when a pers0n gets busy, he/she will start t0 think 0f things. like : when is dinner time. when can i can have drink.
when was the last time i ever had s0meb0dy t0 think 0f. when was the last time i w0rked s0 hard 0f th0se pieces 0f paper. when was the last time i lasted with0ut drinking any f0rm 0f sugar.
ha - anyway ~ pe0ple wh0 are thinking 0f g0ing t0 night safari. Please TABAO ur lunches there. c0z u will bec0me a ch0pping carr0t under the f0odplace. ha -
and i learnt a thing . always check y0ur blind sp0t. why? y0u never kn0w when y0u will break a glass 0r 2 by bumping int0 a fell0w w0rker.
t0 sum up all 0f this : thanks t0 hadi f0r rec0mmending me the j0b. thanks t0 the manager wh0 hired me f0r the j0b.
AND ! thanks t0 miss s0meb0dy f0r being there =)
0k !~ its 0200 h0urs. i sh0uld sleep -
g0od nite everyb0dy ~
1:51 AM
a new page, a new chapter
Friday, February 2, 2007
w0ots - Its the 3rd birthday i celebrated f0r this m0nth. and i c0uldn't remember when was the last time i enj0yed s0 much.
the sea breeze marks the end 0f this sem. the kite which flew away marks the end 0f everything.
ha - anyb0dy saw a pers0n with a white p0cket fl0ating by this aftern0on? t0day i learnt a few things. theres n0b0dy in class wh0 thinks 0f safety . ha -
t0tal damage t0day . 38 . w0ots im super .
first we had the skate and ride until u die. sec0nd we had the burn until u g0 red. ha - dun l0ok at me. i was l0oking after the bags. lastly we had the PeiLin's birthday. w0ots. the cake was nice ~
and t0 mark the end 0f this day. we have the D2 - fall0ut band.
we are the band with . sitcks and . rackets ? ha -
To end this Blog, Heres the bunch of pe0ple wh0 made this things happen.
10:22 PM
a new page, a new chapter
Thursday, February 1, 2007
1st 0f Feb .
bad m0rning . bad aftern0on. bad night.
everything is bad .
s0mething cr0pped up this m0rning, which i dun even kn0w why it cr0pped up. it set my mind thinking 0f it. yea . thx t0 it. i alm0st stood 0n a b0mb.
first. i didn't eat during breakfast. res0ns ? n0t all 0f the sh0ps were 0pened. s0meb0dy ign0red and i felt s0mething wr0ng. the m0rning incident.
sec0nd regr0up? 0r n0t t0 regr0up? nah - f0rget ab0ut this regr0uping thingy. inn0vativati0n pr0ject. s0fts c0pys which i del ytd night. a party in my h0use with a kid blasting the tebee with v0lume 23. and yesh. until n0w they haven left. and i haven eaten my dinner.
bad day eh? 2 thing i must d0 t0day 0r tml. - ap0l0gise t0 s0meb0dy. f0r using s0me wr0ng w0rds. - set 0ut the regr0up thingy.
anyway - TML is 0uting day . yeah ~ finally the wh0le class is 0ut t0gether. g0od 0r bad ? i decide. 1950 h0urs. the k0rea spicy mushro0m maggie mee is next t0 me. calling me t0 c0ok it. ha - and the kids still blasting the tebee 0utside. =/
i have eaten trash fr0m m0rning t0 n0w. i wan my pr0per meal. i need my pr0per sleep.
im wr0ng. yea i am. but yet y0u still came. thx. =)
Regr0up . 0r . n0t to ? s0meb0dy find an answer f0r me.
7:43 PM
a new page, a new chapter
ARGH .
nice w0rds t0 describe the first p0st on this thing called a "BLOG"
n0w i finally kn0w whats w0rse then c# . BLOGs . call newb 0r no0b 0r anything .
1 - i cann0t l0g tagb0ards, ha - dumb enuff . w0ndered if its my 0pera kidding with mi 0r . ? . ha - 2 - bl0g skins . 0h please. s0meb0dy help mi with this . 3 - html c0des . s0rry MR siva. i f0rg0t y0ur teachings .
its midnight lia0 - but i cann0t sleep. ha - i need t0 wait f0r my signal fl0w -.- ... every pr0ject is finished. and yesh ~ im g0nna start w0rk so0n. w0oots . everything is mixing up . ha - everyb0dy is mixing up . whats the pr0blem 0f all these stuff ? we did learn c0mms skill didn't we ? MIS - COMMUNICATION 0k la. its my p0int 0f view th0u . i see s0l0ers every wheres. i see pe0ple face black like ba0 g0ng everywhere. and i saw a big dumb h0ngba0 acr0ss 0ur class . i alm0st wanted t0 make him int0 a char siew ba0 . zzz
k - im d0ne with the c0mplaining. im g0nna contiune t0 wait f0r my "signal flow"
cia0z and g0od nite everyb0dy ! [that is if s0meb0dy is reading it] -
