bedtime st0ries.



0nce a up0n a time,
there was a b0y and a girl in class.
they b0th had feeling f0r each 0ther.

but the girl didn't want t0 have a r/s in class.
s0 the b0y wanted t0 wait f0r the day they seprated class,
s0 that he will have a chance t0 be with her.

0ne day,
the girl gave up everything t0 be with the b0y.
and the b0y gave everything t0 be with the girl.

and the b0y and the girl held in hands,
and walked t0gether.

f0r this st0ry had n0 end.
cause the hands they held will never be let g0.
and the same 3 w0rds stays with each 0ther.



il0vey0u.
baby. yes i d0.
(:

12:48 AM
a new page, a new chapter

in the midst of trying to study jap, test plan.
i wanted t0 lie 0n the bed and just dr0p dead.
weather is making me feel sleepy.

what a great sunday.
and studying and w0rking in c0ffee bean is great.
th0u we need a cup 0f m0cha 0r pure ch0co.
and a lappy with l0ng life.

tml,
jap test.
i g0t a l0w D f0r the half sem 40%.
think that it can g0 t0 high c?
.


i dun wan t0 think.
im tryin t0 keep as awake as p0ssible.
s0 i can study f0r jap.

0o well.
my baby is d0ne with her test plan.
time t0 c0n't 0n mine.
haha.

its simple.
c0ffee bean's chat was great.
s0 i have these few w0rds f0r y0u.
i <3 y0u. like i always will d0.
(:




FRENCH AND JAP TIME.

11:24 PM
a new page, a new chapter

In a midst of the after0on.
while waiting f0r raven t0 get d0ne with his tut0ring.
and sitting in KF,
with s0 ppl,
with s0 little st0res opened.
and a cup 0f c0ffee.

the weathers' n0t g0od n0wadays.
c0ld winds bl0w 0nto the skin like c0ld ice.
and rain p0ured like free fl0w c0ke in buffet.

everything ended 0n the friday.
IADP pr0ject,
c#.

and exams and heavy weightage tests are coming s0on.
s0 let h0pe that i can get d0wn t0 study 0r smth.
and such.
this sem's results aren't g0nna be g0od.
i l0athe studying textb0oks.
and i l0thes typing c0des.
whats m0re,
im m0re 0f a hands 0ne guy.
with m0re brawns then brains.

this sem passed with a blink 0f an end.
many things happend.
we learnt t0 see wh0 stands by the right side 0f the r0ad.
and wh0 stands in the shad0w with red blinking eyes.

lets h0pe that sch0ol will get better.

-

indeed.
i feel like we knew each 0ther f0r a l0ng time.
like we were meant t0 be with each 0ther.
i realised i ain't a very gentle guy afterall.
haha.
cause i always never fail t0 make y0u 0uch 0nce a day.
so,
life is going to be beautiful.
cause its g0nna be with y0u.
i<3u (:

12:44 PM
a new page, a new chapter

im hungry at this p0int 0f time.
dunn0 why.

but the dinner at KFC is a fun rahs.
with th0se p0rtrait 0f birds hanging ar0und.
then th0se .c0m sutffs.

and right.
c# tml.
and iadp next day.

whether i finished an0t.
friday is the deadline.
s0 i can d0 n0thing ab0ut it.
im prepared f0r anything that is g0nna be thr0wn at me.
after friday and thats it.

sleep is what we all missed 0ut.
time is running 0ut.
and my baby still haven finished her rep0rt.
and tml we have a l0ng day 0f IADP.




h0ld y0ur hands and walk the way.
cause the path never ends.
and we'll walk t0gether.
(:

1:18 AM
a new page, a new chapter

c0untd0wn 2 days.




i g0t n0thing much t0 say ab0ut sch0ollife.
cause its just t0 dark.
undergr0unds digging.


its just the gr0up 0f pe0ple y0u mix ar0und with everyday.
c0rrect ppl, c0rrect things d0ne.

d0ne.
thats f0r sch0ol.

p.s
baby.

im here with y0u.
im here f0rever with y0u.
when y0u turn, y0u see me just beside y0u.
when y0u fall, y0u see me catching y0u.

cause im here with y0u.
24/7.

il0vey0u. (:





 

12:10 AM
a new page, a new chapter

time is flying.

tuesday.
wednesday.
thursday.


.
3 days.
2 projects.
and im having t0o much late nights.

and still dunn0 h0w t0 get s0me things d0ne.
im n0t stupid.
im lazy.
but i think i still need a guidance.
haha.

i dun hvae m0nday blues.
i 0nly g0t wake up blues.
i can wake up and switch 0ff the alarm.
and g0 back t0 sleep.
funny eh?

0h well.
lets just get d0ne with the pr0jects.
and get ready f0r the tests and exams.




i'll take y0ur hand. and never let g0.
like h0w i gave you my heart.
and never want y0u t0 return it.
baby (:


12:46 AM
a new page, a new chapter

5 days t0 IADP.
4 days t0 c#.

im n0t intending t0 waste my time 0n c#.
cause i guess IADP is m0re impt than it.

GPA might dr0p this sem.
cause w0rk really made a mess 0ut 0f me.

and luckily t0day i figured 0ut all the DB stuffs.
whats left is,
m0re hell.



after week is 0ver.
then testes will c0me.
sch0ol is like that.


i quitted fr0m the jungles
and g0ing back t0 the w0rld 0f w0odent chips.
maybe hands-0n w0rk is better f0r ppl like me.


tml is m0nday.
and i g0t t0ns 0f stuffs left und0ne.

arh.
time shud be en0ugh.
which means 2-3am everyday again.
..


g0od night guys.




and g0od night baby (:
i'll be waiting f0r y0ur msg.

12:08 AM
a new page, a new chapter

i hate m0ney matters.
..





anyway.
finally i can get s0 sleep t0night.
s0 that i can wake up fresh in the m0rnings again.
next week is a maj0r pr0ject week.

im s0 stuck 0n IADP.
and n0t pr0gressing 0n c#.
..


and i guess the LIME mag was c0rrect.
1 $ 0ut 0f 5.
haha.

anyway. i can't blame it.
like its s0 hard t0 earn bucks 0n pr0ject week.

and my frd kept 0n asking me t0 j0in him in MLM.
s0 stupid.


and t0day test was like finally.
a sm0oth sailing 1.
like all the test be4, just makes me see.
and just dunn0 h0w t0 d0.
.


tml i have t0 w0rk again.
like finally i dun need t0 t0rture myself until 12am and 1 am just because 0f w0rk anym0re.
and n0 m0re 35% disc0unt 0n B&J.



0kie. it nearing 11am.
and baby said she'll sleep early t0day.
and i h0pe s0.




im here t0 pat y0u t0 sleep everynight.
t0 be there f0r y0u everyday.
th0u i have t0 w0rk f0r reas0ns y0u kn0w.
i kn0w y0u uds.
and im really blessed t0 have y0u as my dear baby.
il0vey0u (:

10:42 PM
a new page, a new chapter

its late.
and my baby is still n0t sleeping.




im finally d0ne with the assignment.
and next week is an0ther hectic week again.
all the projects are due.
i had late nights f0r c0uple 0f days n0w.


and the weather is super c0oling.
like its killing me.



i g0t nth much t0 say anyway.
just a sh0rt update.



g0od night ppl.
and g0od night baby (:
f0r i t0ld y0u umpteen times,
and im still g0nna keep telling y0u.
i w0uldnt leave y0u.




like.
OVER MY DEAD BODY.
(:

1:19 AM
a new page, a new chapter

its late.

and after reading s0me bl0gs.
i guess im sleepy.
cause im just laughing.
.



t0day class went fine.
like nth happend.
h0w g0od. h0w well.



anyway.
im 0ut 0f this class.
and i l0st a frd.
s0.
n0 ch0ice.
fate make it that way.



its 125 am!
and im trying t0 get the assignment d0ne asap.
s0 i can finish it s0on.
s0 i can help 0ut tml.

tml is an0ther studying day.
SE,
0op.
and IADP assignment.



g0od night ppl.
0r g0od night t0 the 0ne reading it.
i l0ok f0ward t0 the end 0f this sem.



the darkside.
hate leads t0 anger.
anger leads t0 pain.
pain leads t0 suffering.



l0ok at the bright side 0f life.
cause life is still w0nderful.
cause we are stil y0ung.
we still g0t l0ts t0 live.
l0t l0ts.




tml is an0ther fun day with y0u.
(:

1:00 AM
a new page, a new chapter

its ended.
i h0pe.

cause there is n0thing else that can be d0ne.
maybe fate has a way with playing with ppl.
tml,
let just g0 t0 class with a mask.
and pretend that nth has happened.

and i h0pe that th0se reading my bl0g.
can just st0p asking ab0ut the incident.
it left a scar in a girls heart.



speaking 0f which.
JC.
needs t0 gr0w up.
and v0ice 0ut.
and act like a man.
n0t because that he was t0ld t0 leave.
and he leaves.
y0u need t0 have y0ur 0wn thinking s0on.
and s0rry.
i cann0t have lunch with y0u.
n0r the grp can.

we are trying t0 av0id pr0blems.
m0re pr0blems that might arise.
s0,
lets just ig0nre all these.
and just d0 what we meant t0 d0.
whic is study.

just d0n't chicken m0ve.
n0b0dy can take anym0re 0f this shit.
really.
i dun care h0w ppl see us 0r smth.
cause we kn0w that we are clear.
we did nth wr0ng.
and jc to0.

i miss the times where jc can sit by my grp and eat.
thats.
life.


th0u mr jaric dun kn0w my bl0g 0r smth.
i still have t0 say.
i seri0usly am s0rry.
everytime in y0ur less0n.
i either run away.
0r s0methings just lead t0 me being MIA.

and tml i'll be appearing f0r the 9am class.
and h0pe that.
i dun need t0 see faces fr0m ppl.


tml is just g0nna be a happy day.
(:(:


s0meb0dy is CSI-ing.
but its like 1025 n0w.
an0ther 35 mins and she'll be back t0 d0 w0rk.

y0u have ppl standing by y0u.
and c0vering y0u.
s0 what if n0b0dy believes y0u.
i kn0w y0u are clear.
and right,
y0ur mum is right.
just ign0re them.

even if they slam their feets and thr0w their bags.
they'll get tired 0ne day.
when they gr0w 0ld.
they'll think h0w childish they are.
h0w stupid they are.






its just a t0tal j0ke.
laugh at it.
cause its a j0ke.
think 0f it as a j0ke.
cause life is just a j0ke s0metimes.




1030.
time t0 get d0wn t0 w0rk.

10:01 PM
a new page, a new chapter

it feels g0od.

t0 receive a call in midnight fr0m the 0ne y0u l0ve.
hearing her laugh.
hearing her talk.

and reminding her that everything is 0kie.
h0w i wish t0 hug y0u n0w.
and make y0u g0 t0 bed.

but i kn0w,
we all have things yet t0 be d0ne.



s0, lets finish them.
(:





if i lay here, if i just lay here.
w0uld y0u lay with me, and just f0rget everything?

12:24 AM
a new page, a new chapter

Im updating.

n0w i kn0w, updating in starbucks is n0t fun.
i g0t a l0ng queue behind me,
and surr0unded by s0 many ppl.

then they l0ok at my c0mputer screen like as if they are seeing a m0vie.






but wh0 cares.
..



we g0t t0ns 0f stuffs t0 d0.
t0ns 0f h0mew0rk and assignments t0 settle.
and in this weekend.
what i did?

eh.
half d0ne BPO.
0% 0n iadp.
im s0 dead.

and week 15 is the ending.




t0o much things happened.
t0o many pr0blems arised.
t0o many things t0 be d0ne.



and t0o many w0rds t0 be said t0 y0u.
ytd night.
y0u said i had the "im dying" face.

its n0t the im dying face.
its the "y0u kn0w my answer" face.
when y0u said th0se things last night.
y0u w0uld kn0w my answer.




i t0ld y0u t0ns 0f times.
and t0ns m0re i will say if y0u ask again.



im staying by y0u.
(:





4:16 PM
a new page, a new chapter

i did s0mething wr0ng again.
and i was the 0ne talking ab0ut it.

i did't wish t0 l0se her.
i didn't want her t0 g0 back t0 her w0rld.

i wanted t0 selfishly keep her by my side.
like i always did.

i wanted t0 bring her back.
and d0 everything i can f0r her.

cause she d0ne everything f0r me.
and im d0ing everything i can f0r her.

can i still stay by her?
please.
can i?

i cann0t l0se y0u.
i cann0t leave y0u.





if she dies, i die t0o.

9:32 AM
a new page, a new chapter

did i ruin things with my hands?


did it?

i dun wan t0 l0se her.
she dies, i die.





I LOVE HER.

12:35 AM
a new page, a new chapter

...

a quick 0ne.
cause im tired and shes tired and everyb0dy is tired t0o.

ended the thursday 0n a happy n0te.
and revealing my hist0ry 0n h0w w0oden bl0ck came ab0ut.

next week is super hectic.
and i decided t0 quit fr0m stupid night safari.
cause its n0t nice t0 w0rk there anym0re.

and my dad needs help.
c0ming h0me at 11 always.
and having t0 eat deep fried fish.
..





s0metimes im n0t afraid t0 d0 s0methings.
but its the c0ntr0l i have 0n myself.
the i dun wan t0 l0se y0u fact0r.
dun w0rry.
im still in the pr0cess 0f being a g0od b0y.
haha.




g0od night (:
and the same 0ld w0rds 0ver again.

11:34 PM
a new page, a new chapter

time  t0 bl0g be4 i g0 bath.



...



i g0t actully n0thing much t0 say.
cause im tired 0f everything.



t0day was great.
n0thing much t0 be said.
i said what i wanted t0 tell y0u inside the cinema.

its 0ur 0wn w0rld.
peace and quiet.




transformers were great.
3/5 stars.

why 3?
first.
the battle was bwt them was.
n0t that exciting.

the little tiny r0b0t was dest0ryed by its 0wn flying disc.
h0w lame.

megatr0n death was super lame.
kill by a b0x?
...



JAZZ DIED.
the m0st stylist car was ripped int0 2.


bumblebee l0st his legs.
haha.


i'll watch transf0rmer again if i get a chance t0.
cause the graphics is nice.



tml is sch again.
2 weeks left t0 finish what we have t0.





(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

10:58 PM
a new page, a new chapter

think t0 update be the cl0ck hits 12.

2 weeks t0 iadp.
and this sem is ending s0on.

the sp0tlights 0n this sem was m0ving ar0und.
t0pics popped 0ut everywhere.
it sh0ne 0n mine f0r a while.
and shifted t0 an0ther s0 s0on.



M-18 LEGAL AGE PARTY.
HOST.
me.
MC.
raven.


haha.
it is the "break all the laws 0f 17yrs old be4 cl0cks hit 12 night."
..
lame.


anyway.
2 m0re days t0 a particular BOY de bdae.
lets see if he 'll grow to a GUY mahs.



p.s.
g0od night and sleep early.
tml is mac breakfast day.
and 0ne thing is right.
my f0rte is waiting f0r y0u (:

11:57 PM
a new page, a new chapter

sat and sun.
w0rking days.
after 13 days 0f 0ff days.
i went back t0 w0rk.

and what was the first sentence they said.
"i t0t y0u died?"
"never quit meh?"


...
weekends are always hectic.
i dunn0 why.
ytd was w0rse.
striaght n0 dinner.
t0day.
n0 dinner.

im hungry.
real hungry.
but its t0o c0ld t0 walk 0ut t0 buy f0od fr0m 7-11.

tml is m0nday.
which means sch0ol.
and pr0jects 0nce again.

i dun wan t0 w0rk at that place anym0re.
im n0t a racist.
but the am0unt 0f ppl w0rking there is like s0 unbalanced.
i was suddenly s0 left 0ut.
cause all 0f them were malays.


anyway.
its time f0r j0b hunt.



time f0r the seri0us part.
i read ur* bl0g.
and.

i wanted t0 say smth.

im n0t g0nna leave y0u.
when will yuu gonna be annoyed with me?
im n0t g0nna be ann0yed with y0u.
when will yuu get irritated with me?
im n0t g0nna be irritated by y0u.
when will yuu hate everything about me?
i dun hate y0ur everything.
when will yuu switched off with every single thing i told yuu?
i dun switch 0ff ab0ut everything y0u said.
when will yuu forgot wad i had ever tell yuu?
i w0uldn't f0rget.
when will yuu forgot wad are my preferences?
half cup ice and m0re.
when will yuu found me a brat? a kid or even a bitch?
brat, kid and bitch is what i f0und in y0u.
when will yuu found me not compatible for yuu?
y0ur the 0ne f0r me.
when will yuu found me not the one for yuu?
until the day i die.
when will yuu stop saying how much yuu miss me?
never.
when will yuu stop saying how much yuu love me?
never ever.
when will yuu say i ruin yuu?
never ever ever.
when will yuu say goodbye to me without looking behind?
n0 way.
when will yuu slap me and tell me that yuu hate me?
if i d0 that and i'll die infr0nt 0f y0u.
when will yuu stop loving me?
till a met0r c0mes d0wn t0 earth and hits me.
when will yuu stop hugging me in yr arms?
until i l0st my arms.


final say.
i l0ve y0u.
even after years.
the same things still stays.
cause,
thats what i was prepared t0 d0 f0r y0u.

12:24 AM
a new page, a new chapter

t0night.

i had a great day.
a great acc0mpany.

i believed that everything was s0 happy.
things were g0ing well.

things might be abit t0o fast?
i felt that i made a decisi0n in my life.
i yearn f0r s0me0ne s0 much.
and i l0ve s0me0ne s0 much.

everytime i hugged her,
i felt a surge 0f happiness filling me in.
i was sucked int0 s0mething filled with j0y.

i h0ped t0 be with her everyday.
t0 let her feel at ease and happy.
and i wished that everything i did will make her smile.

the i heart y0u fact0r lies in b0th 0f us.
and i wish 0ur st0ry can be written with n0 ending.


and i just want t0 say 0nce m0re.
i l0ve y0u.

10:43 PM
a new page, a new chapter

We came from a l0ng hist0ry.

n0,

we had a l0ng hist0ry.
fr0m reas0ns s0metimes stupid.
and f0r reas0ns s0metimes s0 funny.

thurdays was never 0ur day.
really and i dunn0 why.

like everything will be s0 happy,
then s0mething in the skies just make us fight.

i meant nth t0 what i said.
thats why i prefer t0 talk face t0 face.
rather then 0n msn 0r s0mething.
cause misunderstanding leads t0 s0 many stuffs.
t0o much t0 the extend that i had t0 bite s0mething s0 that my 0ld habit w0uldn't c0me back.


i MIA.
cause i dunn0 what t0 d0.
and i g0 and hide and think.
simple terms.
im running away.
super stupid and useless way.



next time ,
when thursday c0mes.
im g0nna be prepared.


t0day was happy.
and i want t0 end it in the same way.




s0metimes i think my mum is c0rrect.
i dunn0 h0w t0 pamper girls.
yar.
seri0us.
i suck at that part.
being GM is nth c0mpared t0 that.


and n0w i kn0w that my way 0f pampering is wr0ng.
super wr0ng.
time t0 change.



wait i g0t t0 thank s0me ppl.
1st:
SIS.
i am grateful t0 y0u everytime.
y0u are like 0ne she can c0unt 0n t0 msg me.
haha.
yar. y0ur bag and y0ur s0ftt0y.
s0meday an0ther guy will c0me by and give them t0 y0u.


2nd:
Aisya.
w0ots.
y0u must be a fire engine s0metimes.
cause y0u really can c0ol ppl d0wn.
i shud get a pipe fr0m y0u next time.
haha.

3rd:
DDG.
LOL.
talk to you sometimes is talking to wall.
cause everytime i tell y0u smth,
y0u will just "GGed".








i g0t a sensitive, c0mplicated, unreas0nable brat as a GF.
s0?
iluvher.
(:





n0 barney s0ngs.
-.-

10:15 PM
a new page, a new chapter

time to sleep.
n0 m0re 2 ams.

haha.

s0 im waiting f0r mr raven t0 finish with the rep0rt.
and im d0ne.

JC is having a hard time n0w,
trying t0 finish all his w0rk.

lets h0pe he has time.


then tml is presentation day.
i still dunn0 whether t0 wear full f0rmal,
0r half.


and g0od luck t0 raven.
as it all 0nly c0mes d0wn t0 1 question.


time t0 sleep.
and g0od night.
bye~
and tml presentation.
g0od luck bahs.






dinner night ((:

12:20 AM
a new page, a new chapter

Just when i t0t i finished SE.
i reached h0me and f0und 0ut.

i messed up,
t0 think this small thing can kill me.

and i dun wan t0 g0 search f0r a lab and use r0se again.
i'll edit using ms d0c.
its p0ssible.
but really tr0ubles0me.

thursday its the end 0f SE.
and pr0t0type 0f C#.

then we are left with IADP t0 g0.
like we need t0 f0cus all 0f 0ur attenti0n 0n IADP f0r 3 weeks.
t0 practically finish it.


im feeling super sleepy n0w.
my rep0rt,
ppt,
diagrams.

tml i will finish it.
with 0r with0ut c0ffee.



h0neym0on (:

11:56 PM
a new page, a new chapter

week 12.


time t0 buck up.
after listening t0 big br0 and girl.
l0oks like i disapp0inted al0t 0f ppl.
including.
myself.


l0oks like i shagged f0r 12 weeks.
l0oks like i neglected studies f0r 12 weeks.
l0oks like i fragged myself f0r 12 weeks.


im left with 5 weeks t0 g0.
can i turn back the tables?
i need t0 get back 0n life.
and n0t bucks life.


dinner with big br0 is always s0 unpredictable.
he can em0 until y0u want t0 whack him.
and he can make y0u crazy until y0u wan t0 die.

anyway.
i wish him lucks 0n his stuffs.


l0oks like s0me0ne g0t his stuffs repaired?
g0od luck t0 him t0o.



me?
im happy (:
and i kn0w its time i get d0wn t0 b0oks.


*if life is a j0ke. then why are we laughing?
- dead! - MCR

12:19 AM
a new page, a new chapter

0k,
bef0re i get started.

did y0u all have a g0od dinner?
i had a simple 0ne.
simple t0 the fact its t0o simple.
h0w simple was it.

this simple.
 



..








cann0t rahs,
im stil feeling hungry.
and i cann0t find anything else t0 eat.
guess i'll wait f0r sch tml.


i did WAD f0r the day.
fr0m lab1 t0 4.
and i dun really uds all 0f them
thats why i think lecturers are there f0r.


time t0 g0 back t0 w0rk.
and i dunn0 why the r0om is feeling humid.
i g0t 2 fans 0n but n0 air.
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bye~
cya peeps tmls.

10:00 PM
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