time t0 get s0me updating d0ne bef0re spidewebs gr0w.


yesh,
WAD.

...

s0, that f0r WAD.



girl has been saying that i feel h0t n0wadays.
i t0t its the weather.
n0pe.
im getting fever.
maybe n0t,
m0re green tea w0uld help i think.

i dunn0 h0w t0 express myself.
i think i p0sted s0mething like this be4.
my cl0sest buddies all say im like a w0oden bl0ck.
n0 expressi0n.


0h ya.
i realised i changed al0t fr0m my sec0ndary days.
i met a frd in cp t0day.
he said i dun l0ok nerd like i used t0.
and my mushr0om hair is g0ne.

then i l0ok at him.
he als0 changed. he was h0lding a pack 0f reds.
s0 i asked him when he started.

then he said
"my parents div0rced le lo, s0 i sian then"
...


last thing.
ben's english is really.
...
chinese plus english c0mb0.
and singlish t0o.
yar. tag my b0ard with all the d0ta her0 name.
i see y0u g0t that eff0rt ma.





p.s
iluvher,
and her impt is super high t0 me.
and s0rry f0r being MIA during class.
super.
y0u kn0w why i went 0ut t0 class.
and im trying t0 be a better b0y f0r y0u.

time t0 buck up 0n everything i kn0w and supp0se t0 d0.

11:25 PM
a new page, a new chapter

lets talk ab0ut s0mething senstive t0day.
lets talk ab0ut the m0st evil stuff in this w0rld.

its th0se paper we need everyday.
yar, its $.


we cann0t live with0ut bucks.
its a fact we have t0 f0llow.

an0ther thing.
bucks is super impt in relati0nships.
and its a pr0ve 0f man's pride i think.

i think it getting abit t0o sensitive.
but n0netheless,
lets h0pe that bucks are just s0mething extra.
l0ve has t0 be there as well.





understand?
JC and ben.
i kn0w y0u will be reading this.
haha.

a guy has t0 carry burdens 0f his 0wn.
and n0t t0 let ppl w0rry f0r him.
n0thing is m0re impt t0 a guy 0ther then his l0ved 0nes.
even if y0u w0rked y0ur life 0ut,
y0u kn0w its w0rth it.

when y0u kn0w all these things.
it time y0u bec0me fr0m a b0y, t0 a guy.

get it?
s0 if y0u get it.
g0 and sleep.
cause time is what d0esn't wait.

12:12 AM
a new page, a new chapter

maybe i t0t,
the past few days.
i hate been eating bread.
really bread.

h0td0g bread,
ham and cheese bread,
0tah with bread.

s0 i t0t why n0t get s0mething different t0day.
in the end,
i ate mac.
still bread.




...
t0day ERP.
n0thing t0 talk ab0ut.
what i can 0nly say is,
i didn't study hard myself.




when i was a y0ung b0y,
my father didn't take me t0 a city.
he br0ught me t0 his fact0ry.
he said n0thing and w0rked like i wasn't there.

s0meday,
i have t0 c0ntiune what he left.
thats what he wants.
and what i sh0uld d0.


i'll carry 0n.

11:47 PM
a new page, a new chapter

tml theres ERP test.
how i wish a cash card will just let me pass ERP.


...

0k, lame.



sh0rt sh0rt sh0rt p0st t0day.
in fact 0nly 0ne sentence.


"w0uldn't it be great if everyb0dy is dead?"

8:23 PM
a new page, a new chapter

sch0ol is starting in an0ther 8 h0urs 30 mins.
its h0me stay t0day.

which means i g0t my ERP 4 t0pics d0ne.
im left with 6.

strayed t0 the tv at 9 plus.
cause tv was sh0wing th0se thingy with 4 wheels.
haha.

0kie
let see,
sch is starting.
we g0t t0ns 0f tests.
pr0jects needs t0 be handed in.

and 0ur st0machs needs t0 be filled.
i d0n't intend t0 w0rk f0r next week. 0r even maybe the week after.

its h0t f0r a night like this.
feels like g0bal warming is getting w0rser.

i cann0t think 0f anything m0re t0 update.
maybe ERP was killing.




"everyb0dy has a w0rld they live in, and things that they were b0rn t0 d0."
if thats the case,
i want t0 be a racer als0.
but racers needs bucks.

n0t like y0u can get a car 0ut 0f n0where,
n0t like y0ur skills c0me fr0m anywhere.
n0t like a m0untain pass will c0me r0m anywhere.

s0 st0p dreaming, and get w0rking.
g0od night pe0ple.



12:32 AM
a new page, a new chapter

its sat.
and the weather is super h0t.
and its l0oks like its g0nna rain 0r s0mething.
lets h0pe it rains.

friday is learning day.
1)I g0t freaking n0 time management.
2)im a mrt idi0t.

haha.
thats explain why im falling behind all my w0rk.
and thats why i am 0nly handling things 10% well.

true en0ugh.

m0nday is be sch0ol again.
0ur s0 called study break is ending s0on.
and theres t0ns 0f things waiting when sch0ol starts.
s0,
let try t0 d0 0ur best.


i seri0usly g0t n0 m0od t0 g0 w0rk n0w.
cause i "s0rt 0f" underst0od c# and wanted t0 d0 it.
but i had t0 g0 w0rk.
and tml im be mugging wh0le day at h0me and CP.
cause the starbucks there is s0 empty.

i had my fill 0f fun yest.
t0ld ya i'll d0 t0ns 0f walking. -.-
and yesh.
i ain't a g0od b0y.
haha.

d0n't waste time away.
cause the am0unt 0f time we have left is t0o little.
we g0t t0ns 0f things t0 be d0ne
we g0t l0ts 0f tests still waiting.

take a deep breathe.
and hit it with all y0u g0t.
lets r0ll.
cya peeps 0n m0nday.
(:

12:39 PM
a new page, a new chapter

wednesday.

supp0sed t0 have jarics class.
but i think it was a waste 0f time.

n0thing much t0 update ab0ut t0day.
just that i have d0ne l0ts 0f walking t0day.
ha

g0od excerise.
its nearing 0ne.
and im falling asleep due t0 the ham and cheese i ate just n0w.
d0ing pr0ject in slacking m0od is g0od.
but the pr0blem is always the p0wer p0int.

tml is thursday.
im supp0sed t0 w0rk.
but i ain't g0ing.
im super tired and i g0t t0ns 0f stuffs und0ne.
my iadp is still in a mess,
my c# is n0t even started.
and s0me ppl already finished it.


3 m0re days t0 end 0f study break.
and i was h0ping f0r a l0ng time.

...
lets get this pr0ject warfare started.
and end it with a b0om.


g0od night peeps.

12:45 AM
a new page, a new chapter

its tuesday,
its an0ther day 0f waking up with th0se c0nstructi0n n0ises fr0m the wind0w.
and the sun shining in 0n my face.

my ro0m is in a super big mess.
the 0nly tidy part is the bed.
haha.

breakfast is still undecided.
beeh0on? 0r simply maggie again.

ever w0nder why life has n0 backspace?
i w0ndered but theres nn0 answer.
s0 why b0ther.
ha.

time t0 end this,
breakfast time!.

"have realistic expectations"
bull.

11:08 AM
a new page, a new chapter

its m0nday.
yar, a pathetic and l0nes0me m0nday.

wake t0 see the wh0le h0use empty.
and facing the lappy early in the m0rning.

i tried getting back 0n my feet.
these past 3 years is n0t a g0od thing either.






s0me0ne was sniping in the back 0f the bushes,
s0me0ne was giving inf0rmati0n fr0m n0where.

s0me0ne killed me fr0m behind.
s0me0ne was t0ld me t0 g0 ahead while he'll c0ver my ass.
s0,
warfare issn't any g0od anyway.
s0 i'll bl0w myself up.
and then



happy ending.

11:44 AM
a new page, a new chapter

s0rry guys, net wasn't with me the past with days.
ha.

the skies is super dark,
but im already awake.
s0 n0 p0int lazy in bed when i have t0 head 0ff t0 w0rk after an0ther 2 h0urs.

i hate w0rking,
seri0usly,
i have pains all 0ver my b0dy,
my kneecaps are giving way t0 my stil gr0wing fat b0dy.

and t0o much 0f pepsi and c0ke is killing me.

they say when y0ur parents div0rce,
they leave y0u s0mething.

yar, and they left me a big pink slip.
s0mething d0n't wan t0 l0ok at until i have en0ugh time.

this week is ending s0on,
and i g0t n0thing d0ne.
n0thing.

...
i g0t time.
but i g0t n0 feel.
but i kn0w its just an excuse.

lets h0pe next week i'll be able t0 get kicked and d0 my stuff.
es c# and iadp.
n0t f0rgetting ERP test.


time flies,
cause time wait f0r n0 humans,
n0t even aliens.
n0t even dumb dumbs.
n0t even zebras.



.shalityubll'i
cause it makes y0u happy.
(:

11:54 AM
a new page, a new chapter

in the midst 0f d0ing IADP.
and l0oking thru c#.

i f0und this.
aha.

g0 and take it if y0u have the thing.

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=338886042745332086



okie, and my results.
wh0 will get choc0 fudge br0wnie !?


Your Score: BROWNIE BATTER!
You scored 77% SWEET, 62% CHUNKY, and 55% UNIQUE!


brownie batter ice cream with a rich brownie batter swirl

Mmmm....you are a very sweet mix indeed! You are warm, loving, and caring to all those around you, but you're not boring in the least! You have a wild streak and a creative, unique streak, too. You are a great friend, an interesting person, and you know how to have fun without ending up crouching over a toilet bowl. Nice!

4:46 PM
a new page, a new chapter

the stars l0ok at me, and i l0ok at them.
;

i g0t n0 life,
i guess s0.
all i d0 is w0rk and scho0l.

i eat dinner al0ne,
i watch tv al0ne
i return h0me al0ne,
and i wake up al0ne.

my h0use is empty,
fr0m the start and t0 the end.


i dun eat dinner unless i g0t the feel t0 eat.
cause i dun like the feel 0f having t0 wake up early in the m0rning,
buy bee h0on and eat in fr0nt my lapt0p watching initial d 0r bleach.
then wait till night and buy rice up and stare at my lapt0p 0nce again.

i stare at my lapt0p alm0st everyday.
its either i l0ok at msn, 0r friendster.
but im getting b0red 0f it n0wadays.
cause i c0uldn't 0nline,
cause i g0t n0 internet.
and i have 0 friends that are happening en0ugh.

all they kn0w is DOTA, and m0re DOTA.

welc0me t0 MY life.
all the happiness fr0m my life is that little.
all fr0m HER,
and my sn0opy wrapped bed.

2:14 AM
a new page, a new chapter

the stars l0ok at me, and i l0ok at them.
;

i g0t n0 life,
i guess s0.
all i d0 is w0rk and scho0l.

i eat dinner al0ne,
i watch tv al0ne
i return h0me al0ne,
and i wake up al0ne.

my h0use is empty,
fr0m the start and t0 the end.


i dun eat dinner unless i g0t the feel t0 eat.
cause i dun like the feel 0f having t0 wake up early in the m0rning,
buy bee h0on and eat in fr0nt my lapt0p watching initial d 0r bleach.
then wait till night and buy rice up and stare at my lapt0p 0nce again.

i stare at my lapt0p alm0st everyday.
its either i l0ok at msn, 0r friendster.
but im getting b0red 0f it n0wadays.
cause i c0uldn't 0nline,
cause i g0t n0 internet.
and i have 0 friends that are happening en0ugh.

all they kn0w is DOTA, and m0re DOTA.

welc0me t0 MY life.
all the happiness fr0m my life is that little.
all fr0m HER,
and my sn0opy wrapped bed.

2:14 AM
a new page, a new chapter

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

here i am,
unable t0 sleep.

i st0le the net fr0m my br0ther after he slept.
luckily he didn't l0ck the r0om.

l0oked a0urnd f0und 0ut i need t0 d0 s0me things in my ro0m.
its in a t0tal mess,
my dad laid a red carpet 0n the fl0or at my r0und,
and i was w0ndering where he g0t it fr0m.

0k, saturday was a ... very busy day,
the w0rkplace was packed with pe0ple,
and queues never ended until cl0sing time,
and all 0f us had n0 dinner.

and i had t0 retain my calm after being sc0lded by cust0mers,
w0rds like
"stupid y0u!"
"bl0ody hell"
...
i w0rk f0r a living,
n0t f0r sc0ldings.




s0 we stayed after 11 t0 have dinner.
fried rice and ben&jerrys
[bec0s 0ur manager struck 4d i guess]

s0rry t0 miss shimin f0r n0t g0ing t0 her party,
cause it was t0o late and i was very tired.
and i smelt super smelly.
ha.



its tuesday already,
and the h0lidays started.
i guess its time i get s0me things d0ne.


g0od night pe0ple.
and have a g0od rest f0r week 11.
im g0nna d0wnl0ad cart0ons t0 acc0mpany me f0r breakfast tml.
ha.
(:
s0rry girl;
ha.
life with0ut crabs is b0ring,
=p

1:36 AM
a new page, a new chapter

Saturday, June 9, 2007

first things first;
i dunn0 ab0ut mr jarics make-up class,
but y0ur chairman hadi will g0 and check it 0ut.

ha.

sec0ndly,
questi0ns.
why d0 crabs appear f0m st0nes and walk striaght?

answer?
n0b0dy kn0ws.

thirdly.
its STUDY BREAK!

its time t0 earn bucks and settle IADP.
yar,
my pr0jects sucks t0 the c0re.
s0,
w0rk hard everyb0dy.

ytd was a super friday.
..
c#?
i guess its passable.
SE?
dead.
6  SHORT questions.
h0w "sh0rt" it is -.-
10 marks f0r 5 answers.
that kick me right in the face.
meaning i g0t to study so0n,
and st0p trying t0 earn m0re bucks.

s0 its a saturday t0day,
and its shimin's birthday party.
s0 everyb0dy please have fun t0day,
i'll g0 i guess,
but 0vernight cycling ...
might c0nsider.
haha
...


p0pc0rns never end (:
and
g0od m0rning rahs!~

11:50 AM
a new page, a new chapter

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

While waiting f0r my Mac spicy t0 c0me,
and stuck in the middle 0f the class diagrams.

what d0 i d0?

bl0g.

t0day.
eh,
...



n0thing much.
but,
i f0und a br0ther in class la.
like h0w miss serene has a twin sister.

i f0und my twin br0ther in class t0day.
i dun want t0 wear white and black lia0.
JC!
i kn0w y0u might be reading this.
i gif that patternt t0 y0u la.

...
during these 3 d0ts.
i wasted 15 mins and stare at the screen.



MY MAC.
YESH.

im 0ff t0 dinner!
(:
my heart is n0t here. its there.

11:57 PM
a new page, a new chapter

Monday, June 4, 2007

n0,

n0 m0re DOTA.
seri0usly rahs.

i sucks at it.
and i d0n't like the feel 0f l0sing.
ha-


0k, t0day.
was a hungry day.

i didn't eat en0ugh f0r the wh0le day.
dinner was a tad t00 little.
haha.

n0w im tempted t0 g0 buy f0od fr0m 7-11.
but im left with 2 bucks -.-

pay day !
if pay dun c0me tml,
=  im dead tml.

haha-
time t0 bath!
and eat maggie!

g0od night pe0ple.
ha-
am i dumb 0r what? -.-

11:40 PM
a new page, a new chapter

i bl0gging.

with the machine machine rumbling with the spinning.
the water heater dripping.

its n0t a hectic day t0day.
but i think the w0rk was enuff t0 make me sweat like hell.
i feel a headache c0ming.

but i guess dinner s0lved it.
lucky theres a small car t0 drive us back t0night.
0therwise i w0uld have reach h0me later then i t0t.


i heard a saying t0day,
i think its dumb,
but i think its w0rth listening anyway.

"the numbers 0f stars y0u see in the sky everyday, is the am0unt 0f c0nfidence y0u have in y0urself"

i didn't see stars t0day =/
well,

the nights is falling,
the cl0uds are drifting.

and i br0ught my dreamland ticket,
h0w b0ut y0u ?
(:

1:14 AM
a new page, a new chapter

Sunday, June 3, 2007

i all al0ne in the h0use.

but its g0od.
i get t0 0n my airc0n,
and sleep with0ut ppl disturding me.



t0day was a busy day.
s0 busy t0 the extent 0f that i and many pe0ple didn't have much dinner.
s0 i decided t0 have supper after w0rk.

tml is sunday,
family day.
busy day.

and Jap 0ral test ,
BPO,
is 0n m0nday.

and i didn't get 0ff f0r next week!
but i said i dun wan t0 w0rk.
s0 i g0t n0 ch0ice but t0 w0rk 0n wednesday.

the m0on is nice t0day.
and im starting t0 get sick 0f the numbers.
dunn0 why,
i dun feel like d0ing numbers n0wadays.

maybe things started t0 appear m0re and m0re well.
better.

its alm0st 3am.
and u-f0 needs t0 sleep t0o.
ya kn0w.

g0od night ppl :)
and g0od night garfield .
ha.

2:49 AM
a new page, a new chapter

Friday, June 1, 2007

its a great day in sch0ol t0day.

[ that is - the c# test and the "ice skating" ]

i think i never sat d0wn be4 with raven and had a k0pi sessi0n be4.
imagine.
mr ben sitting ther act c0ol,
JC laming ar0und.
c0lin .. dunn0 what he w0uld d0.

n0 fun.
ha.


i guess the 5 is the 0nly 0nes that can g0 crazy 0ver t0pic.
t0pics that c0nsist 0f themselves.
haa.


laughing at 0ne and 0ther.
and then taking n0 0ffence at each 0thers w0rds.
thats what i call, "k0pi sessi0n"


its a great dinner rahs.
after that dumb c#.



i want t0 race 0nce m0re with that guy.
because i needed t0 kn0w h0w much i impr0ved.
0r im just still smelling his exhaust fumes.

its late.
and im seri0usly t0o relax afte that sessi0n.
s0 i guess i'll talk u-f0 language tml.
and study BPO.
ha.


g0od night ~
aliens,
u-f0,
and garfield.
(:

11:42 PM
a new page, a new chapter