if i g0 army tml.
i might die fr0m the 10kg pack 0f BMT EQs.

i weighted my mums stuff in that big black bag.
15kg.

and i s0rt 0f carried it all the way t0 her h0use!
...

my arms are aching and my hands have lines 0n them.
i didn't kn0w my mum had 15kg 0f stuffs left in this h0use.
which included that BIG AMC w0k my mum br0ught last time.
and she said its t0o heavy.
but nvm lah.
she needs it s0 i carry.
...

but is damn heavy -.-

heard the news fr0m my mum thn my br0ther has been cursing me.
yea.
all the sh0rt f0rms that y0u can think 0f.

hit the wall br0.
the w0rld is t0o big f0r y0u.
g0 stare and the glass and lo0k at y0ur 0wn w0rld.
n0 0ne else can pull y0u 0ut 0f that digital w0rld.

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less0n 0n human thinking and em0ti0nal setbacks.
t0 th0se wh0 are g0nna read it.
it might n0t be useful t0 y0u.
but its useful t0 me.

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theres things called walls.

wall 0f thinking.
wall 0f feelings.
wall 0f res0lve.



the wall 0f thinking.
0nce y0u think.
y0ur pulling a brick 0ut fr0m y0ur wall,
0pening y0urselves t0 m0re and m0re thinking.

0nce that wall breaks d0wn.
y0u see the wall 0f feelings.
then y0u start t0 cry,
and the wall c0mes crumbling d0wn.

then y0u l0ok up and see all the bricks lying ar0und y0u.
and y0u piece them up again.
al0ne 0r n0t al0ne.
this wall.
the wall 0f res0lve needs t0 be build up.

ask urself.
whats y0ur res0lve in y0ur life.
study?
the 5cs?
0r just s0me plain stupid dreams 0f bec0ming a super her0.
i kn0w many pe0ple wh0 think 0f themselves as anime her0s.
like they are ichig0. wh0 can just put 0ut a sw0rd and g0 cut h0llows.
like they are narut0. wh0 can bunshin and make ransengan.
...
l0ok at y0urselves.
y0u just a plain human with just 5 senses.
and no.
blinding y0urselves will n0t make y0ua daredevil.
getting bit by a spider d0n't make y0u a spiderman.
tearing y0ur cl0thes in a teleph0ne b0oth d0n't make y0u superman.
adding chemicals int0 y0ur drinks dun make y0u, p0werpuff.

its n0t the time y0ur fighting at,
its y0ur brain.

c0ntr0l y0ur brain.
like i say.
mem0ries remain mem0ries.
thinking 0f it d0esn't bring it back.
thinking 0f it 0nly makes y0u reflect.

c0mpare and c0ntrast.
s0luti0ns and answers.
c0nclude and c0nculsi0ns.

all 0f these are th0ught by 0urselves.



en0ugh 0f less0ns.

byE.

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