Dear Mum,


im s0rry t0 let y0u kn0w ab0ut the fact i have been d0ing n0wadays.
in fact , f0r the past few m0nths.


i always th0ught 0f myself as a g0od b0y,
wh0 listen and 0beys.

but n0w,
i cann0t s0lve my 0wn pr0blems,
cann0t think 0f any s0luti0ns.

i am l0st in a T intersecti0n.
dunn0 which way t0 turn.

and im falling behind in sch0ol.
im tired 0f having t0 d0 s0me stuffs.

n0w,
im just an0ther useless b0y,
carry burdens 0n my 0wn back.
n0t even trying t0 c0nfine in anyb0dy.

im s0rry,







deeply.









if 0nly my mum can read english.



im feeling restless and tired.
im having aches all 0ver me.

and h0w i wish a car can just ram 0ver me and let me die.
simply because life is s0 hard t0 take.

s0meb0dy,
anyb0dy.


please guide my way.
back t0 where i bel0nged.






i watch smallville this m0rning.
"life will find a balance"
"even if y0u are able t0 amend this, s0mething else will still happen"

if i had the crystal.
i w0uld g0 back,
and amend things i sh0uld have just left there.
and c0ntiune with life.

10:55 AM
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